what if one day you realise, your loved one isn't the happiest around you, but when with someone else? would you choose to try even harder to make your loved one happier, or just let your loved one fly away? which one will be the better choice?
currently, i'm stuck at the former.

i'm still not willing to give up in this battle, i'm not willing to let all my efforts go to waste. i've spent so much time and effort nurturing this seed, because i believe that this seed will grow to become a very special flower. call me selfish or whatever, the seed had already sprouted for a while, and i do not want to pass it to someone else, i want to continuing nurturing it.
but for this special flower to eventually materialize, i need you to understand too, i need your help too, as it takes two hands to clap.
of course, unless you choose to back out of it, then i've nothing else to say.

The Reason - Hoobastank
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

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Togi@CHINAtown! (:

NBPSC@VivoCity! (;




whether it's sadness or joyous, yeah i want to be connected to you.

Every moment I cry
I’m gonna be stronger than I used to be
Don’t be ashamed to be afraid
No, no
Don’t you try to deny it so much
Oh every moment I smile
I’m gonna be happier than I used to be
Growing, is sometimes painful
So much better than fooling myself
And now
When I feel like crying, I cry
When I feel like smiling, I smile

The weather vane sways
We met on top of the hill
Ah, you were a strong person
Ah, and your eyes never lied
There is one thing, one thing finally I found
It is one love, one love that you give me
My heart
Is weak, weak
And the one who loved me
Is the one who showed me
Every moment you cry
Ah, I know you can be stronger, stronger
Don’t be ashamed to be afraid
No, no
You can’t lie to your heart
Oh every moment you smile
Ah, gentle emotions begin to overflow
Now I understand
What you’re trying so say
Never lie to myself
When I smile someone feels better
When I cry someone cares about me

I try to figure out just where I’m going
Because I don’t wanna chase the wrong road yeah
I swallowed my feelings and it was enough
I wanna be free

THEMINDCAFE!


marinaSQ!




orchardION!


i'm trying my best to not fall so deeply again.
i'm trying my best to not get so hurt again.
perhaps, it's time to let you go and live your own life. 

i never thought i would experience those feelings again, i thought i've long abandoned them when i graduated from high school. 
i guess i was wrong again. once again, i've to deal with these overwhelming emotions.
and once again, you walked into my life.

妥协 - 蔡依林
你总爱编织谎言
我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太野

你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
绑着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你已下最后通牒 我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会变 不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

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NBPSC sees FIREWORKS!

i'm sinking into that deep hole, again.

From the 25th June 2009 issue of '8 Days' -
Cancer is a sign of compassion embodying all that is best in the caring maternal instincts, but it often hides its emotions behind a mask, denying these inner feelings: Cancerians are vulnerable and easily hurt; the confident mask they wear in public is a defence against the rough and tumble of the world. 
If it's your birthday today -
Be positive. You've done your best and nobody can deny that you've gained in stature after all your trials. You will soon be experiencing a well-earned sense of satisfaction and will know that the future is much brighter. Remember, you're in the driving seat.

... hmmm, i wonder if '8 Days' is talking about me. i mean, it's totally describing my plight now. and i really do hope the part about satisfaction and brighter future will come true somehow, cause i really do need those stuff right now, right now! oh please, i'm already leaving everything to fate now. *pray hard*

first, it's mother's day, then father's day, and now finally it's ... ... MY DAY!
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, SUNTHAI!
thanks alot for all the birthday messages! (whether it's early, on time or late)
thanks namchew, boonwei, yaohui, aloysius, weekong and sgt benedict for the strawberry cake!
and the most pleasant surprise, all the birthday wishes on my facebook's wall! i was seriously very surprised, especially wishes from some unexpected people,and the fact that i'm not an avid user of facebook due to it's complicated applications and etc, but i guess facebook does have its uses after all ;D

another year has passed.
gosh i've been through so much these few years. i've gained so much experience and knowledge, and also seen the ugly side of reality and the dark side of the world. i thought i would become stronger, and unfortunately, i'm slowing losting all my motivations. i feel like a puppet, having no control over my own life. i'm just going through everyday blindly, without any purposes. yes, i know this is a very dangerous situation to be in. this is after all the first time i'm feeling this way too. i'm also trying my utmost best to find a destination to walk towards to, something achievable, something near.
i'm becoming numb.

张惠妹 - 分生
一个我像不会累 一直往前
一个我动弹不得 伤心欲绝
我不确定几个我 住在心里面
偶尔像敌人 偶尔像姊妹

一个我在网路上 朋友一堆
一个我在房间里 独自面对
灰色的音乐 塞满黑夜 High的想麻醉
好让翻搅的胃 安静一点 忘了全世界

分裂前的热泪 分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁 越防备 像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎 分裂后的假面
不快乐 不伤悲 情绪埋藏成了壁垒 等待爆裂

一个我相信用心 会被感觉
一个我大喊真心 会被欺骗
开始的热烈 不停奉献 后来剩决裂
谎言吞噬了心 带来刺痛 撕裂的蜕变

Buddies Talk Again! (:



VJC HARMOC CONCERT '09!


 1 auntie plus ...
 3 butterflies and 1 bird equal ...
 1 auntie wannabe!




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growing up is such a scary thing.